Crystal Ball

Life doesn't give you a real crystal ball

I love you and that is all

I don't know you we just discussed our favorite foods

We just discussed the things we liked

I hear my friends call

I don't know how to be without you

I don't know if tomorrow still brings Mr. Right

I like getting to know the him I have found

Maybe it could be better now

But I think this is where we are meant to be somehow

He isn't free. We dont belong to each other

I believe we were meant to be together

But I cant tie him down

I can't force forever

I can't stop him from breaking my heart

I can't make the RED SEA part

All I know is this secret light that shines through the dark

I love you and He has a love for me

Maybe this is all that is meant to be

He is tied to another mission

Our dream will breathe only with divine permission

Today we talked on the phone

I told him it still feels like i am all alone

He says he misses me, he says he wants me in his life

It won't be like this forever, you know

Even if i block him he will leave many envelopes in my mailbox at home

He says he will always be here for me

He will wait even if it takes eternity

He says he doesn't believe it will be

What can i do

My friends say he will never leave

I am Carrie in harry met sally

They don't know even 15 minutes in person or 35 minutes on the phone I am happy

I like getting to know him still

I am blind to reason

I pray there will be no end to our shared season

Yet I don't have a crystal ball

In the beginning it was new

Casual and on and off

I ran to another guy and then I ran back to him to escape the crazy time

He has me wrapped around his finger

its an awful place for a lady to linger

I wait patiently for the next kiss

i wait patiently for the next time

Until I find someone else to make me forget all logic of the mind

I can't be without him after all

I only have the present

Life didn't come with a crystal ball