Recovery Road

Did he fall asleep like he said in the text he sent

How do I know?

Must we always do a fact check

I need to trust but I don't

i guess this is why I allow what ever will be done

We exchanged words of love

Mine was over text his was on his way out after sex

How do we know its true

We don't

We are all in recovery mode

From past lives, past relationships

I couldn't stay away if I tried

I love kissing his lips

The feeling of his finger tips

When our skin is pressed to each other

Like two people madly in love with insatiable hunger

Why did he text me he was going to sleep

I didn't ask what he was doing

I just want to enjoy without anyone getting hurt

I don't even dream of white dresses or diamond rings

Its not in the cards

I am not a nun

i need to feel love

i need to feel warm lips

I need to touch silky skin

Sorry for the sin

I just couldn't resist

Hopefully He will forgive

Send mercy

Send me the one I need

I know I don't deserve

All these lonely nights hurt

Yet my depression makes me feel solitude is not such bad world

Maybe if I just keep loving someone  someone out there will love me back

Till then forgive oneself for the past

We are all in recovery mode

Bless the broken road

Bless the broken hearts

Let love shine in a place so dark

Forgive me and you for all these scars

Sometimes we need sweet kisses to help us see stars

All I know is I can hear my heart and soul say I need him so

I can't let go

As I walk recovery road