Beautiful & Annoying

The humans are a mixture of things

Rainbow stripes on swift wings

Shows in between shadows and light

I think that's why so many body colors don't always shine

We are only seeing with earthling eyes

A caterpillar becomes the butterfly

In its dark cocoon it gets all it needs to look beautiful in the sky

To be strong in flight and life

Humans are different and so see differently

its not always the way it should be

Getting employed to get money to live is hard to understand

Why does earth require it when its not needed in Heaven?

Why did we grow so many plants and yet so many hunger?

Fortune tellers tell me this is my first life and this is the reason why I feel so much wonder

I do not want to live in sin but its hard to be completely single and on my own

I met a man who softened my heart of stone

Yet I don't want to tie myself down

I need to always feel free somehow

Like clean oxygen is entering my mouth

When I moved in with my first boyfriend it was a dream house

A little apartment with a two cute people at the start

As the seasons changed so did my heart

He lost his job, he got fat, he started to be cold and mean sometimes for him I tried to understand

Our schedules were night and day

In the end our love drowned in quick sand and our apartment of dreams turned in to a golden cage

A term he said himself

He complained about crumbs

In the end felt like a hell I voluntarily wanted to go myself

I chose this straight jacket, I was lost in the mental ward we lost the love we knew before

We were supposed to be lovers but evolved as the room mate

Resulting in the need to tell me his ecstacy was fake

We tried to work it out

In the end we just kept falling down

When we broke and had to separate

He cried to my face

It was unfamiliar to me because Asians I know don't show to much emotion including me

It was a tender vision of reality.

The letting go was hard for him as could be.

He told me he would still be single forever

A new love for him now was a never

Then I heard from him he knocked someone else up a few months later

So even when you have two cute people its only nice on paper

So I am all messed up because I too wear rainbow stripes on swift wings

Sometimes its beautiful and sometimes its annoying things

Now I feel from all the side effects from love I have been deploying

A new butterfly found me on this mad path and I am just enjoying

As a hopeless romantic the dramatics can be toying

He talks of the L word, moving in, asks if we are a good match

Conversations that are fun to have are beautiful and annoying

I am not ready baby

I am not ready to land

i just want to make love and hold his hand

Be the one he needs when life is too hard to understand

I want to be his friend to the end

I don't know much beyond this

Often singles are now in the same mix

I love exploring, I have a wonder lust that broke me and my ex before, I cant apologize for it anymore

I don't long for the golden cage now. i just want true love to knock on my door

If we cant go for more when its time leave my heart on the mat

I will be thankful and I might be sad

I will never be broken

If my husband is where my destination leads

This life that we had was meant to be

I think about those babies that got aborted

Maybe abortion is Gods return policy

Off course the surgeries are never pretty

Just like when you euthanize a dog

Watching the light vanish and a body left like a log

Can leave one in an eternal fog

We want to do the right thing out of love

God will guide us from above

Only He can judge

We must do our best to live right

Try to reach the sky of life

Turn to HIM when we have gone blind

Even on a swift wing

We will bump into things that are toying and enjoying

Merely, beautiful and annoying.