Break Me

I walked in to the van

Its our secret place

He held my hand

He said its been so long since I have seen your face

He held me and we sat in our embrace

With eyes closed and just like that the world went away

Everything I wanted by Billie Eilish played

He held me for so long

We went through two more songs

Then he released me

Asked me about my life

I have known him for 4 years

He reminds me I was 36 when we met

Its him who remembers

Its me who forgets

I don't memorize time

Every moment is a birthday and a valentine

Every moment  sparks are alive and its 4th of July, its anniversary night

We aren't perfect it always feels worth it

A celebration of life

An eternal whirlwind of butterfly

He will always be my baby

I always miss him like crazy

Nothing can take him from my side

We were meant to be in this life

While I was talking he noticed my bruise

He said oh baby I am sorry they did that to you

He said I will heal it with my kiss

On my deltoid I feel his lips

Love energy and connection comes in

Fear and depression breathe out

I am his for the taking now

There is no way I can leave

I never wanted to

Am I a slave to love

Is love just a drug

What is real

what are lies or truth

we see Dr. Dre and his wife married for so long too

she is asking for $900,000 dollars in entertainment

He and his soon to be ex are waiting for a lawsuit concerning money to end

This isn't what I live for

I am a hopeless romantic

I don't believe now in the institute of marriage

Weddings are pretty

Diamond rings are beautiful

But its not when the vows that are spoken are now broken

If I cant commit to God

How can we commit to love

I cant judge

i am human too

I am a fallen angel

I fell in love with a man too

They are such delicious creatures

even when they act like fools

I am happy to be a woman that loves a man

i don't want material things that can easily be burned or buried in sand

I am looking for a cant live without you love

I am a sex and the city fan

He kissed my bruised

He made me feel more valued than a ripe fruit

I don't know I have no clue

There is something about him

Something about Ben

I couldn't leave if I tried

No amount of reason could save me

So go on and break me.