The Meaning of Me

The writing voices call me

I was watching Oprah talk to Mariah Carey on Apple TV

They discussed the Meaning of Mariah

Everyone knows I am inspired by her

I dont like to call myself a lamb or a fan

She does inspire she can

I heard the answer to her stories

I realized one of the reasons I like her

She is a classy diva lady

She inspired me to sing

Especially when life is hard to live

In-between the light and the dark

I didn't like her from the start

I was listening to Barbie and the Rockstars

On my karoke machine

my older sister came and changed the tape

I was in the middle of this great day

I was irritated at the bossy way this interference came

Then when I heard her Vision of Love

I slowly warmed to a sound that could only come with blessings from above

When we heard Someday we heard some stories about Mariah

She is bi racial and as time continued I felt I found a 4th sister

Someone who understood

When someone tells you you're not enough 

How to be strong when life was so very tough

When the world sees you incompletely

or not at all

She helped me find my own meaning

My own melody

i am living it well

She taught me how to wear that hard outer shell

While still feeling girly wearing the sparkly

Emotions and music box helped me how to sing a lot

Daydream and Butterfly I became a lady

My romantic visions and my poetic self merged as one

So many ways to inspire life romantically

Yet we can never find the man to meet us realistically

Dream lover I am still praying he will come my way

Now at Caution and Save the day

I find myself beyond the rainbow with imperfections of a fallen angel

nice titles to give chapters to life

in the middle I fell in love with his smile

I wish I could meet a man who inspires me in the same way

Instead of the ones who just want me in the mood

We tried to be kind but don't get the kind back too

Still because of you

I found a charmbracelet

Her whispery melody wears on my wrist

I never forget that I too can sing

Because of the breath HE GIVES

I know how to be true

Nothing can break me down

Nothing can take away

The freedom I have found

I am ready to live just for me now

I realize I dont believe in the institution of marriage

I dont need diamond rings and financial contracts

All we care about are the carats and the dollar facts

We are hopeless romantic

Dreaming and eternally 12

Hoping to meet the man

Yet knowing we can save ourself

I want a man and a love who understands

Who will make time for me

I feel I met the man who will always be my baby

Yet its just a fantasy

Dont forget about us

I stay in love

Its up to us to erase the ways of zero

Be our own hero

The hero lies in me and you

Thanks to Mariah for helping us find this non erasing truth

In listening about the Meaning of Mariah I found the meaning of me too.