He didn't expect this

He didnt expect this

Never thought I would say goodbye

What was his wish

I would be having sex with him for the rest of his life

with a strict schedule

with him going to universal studios with his wife

I suppose it was fun at the start

Cupid shot his arrow to pierce my heart

Thats the only thing that makes sense in the end

I am not the type to date married men

He said he was separated and complicated

Now I see it is you and our connection is ill fated

Though as I write this poem I still want him

I still miss him

What does that say

I am an addict

i just need time for it to go away

Was it love

whatever it was

it is a one sided love

no angels from above

I have fallen in to his dirty glove

i dont regret

you were sent by someone for me to enjoy

now I am awakened by the divine voice

I see this is wrong

We dont belong

not if you need her

so dont tell me you didnt expect this

were we supposed to be forever

I want to text back but it would only lead to the carousel

I would only fall back under shadow weaver's spell

loving you was hell but so is leaving those are the cards I was dealt

nothing to do but go on even though it also feels wrong

but i dont trust you now

i dont believe anything you say

its been 5 years everything stayed the same

you cant not love me and expect me to stay

i love the mirage

i love what we could be

i am awake though and it doesnt match reality.

He didnt expect this

Its pretty audacious

We are just fwb

you are my something else

what then did you expect?

with strict schedules and taking wife to universal studios

you had to know I must let go

what is left to stay for

when love is never more

How  can I not want to walk out the door

i dont like to be mean but you aren't smart

Thinking that people just are physical without heart

I dont know it dont make sense

It makes me not even want to be friends

I prayed no one would take you from my side

but I feel dead inside

watching you with her

so dont bother

just let me go

I will remember you forever

I pray to wake and forget your name

Turns out you are the eternal flame

Reminding me what burn feels like

Like the moth I couldnt resist your light

If only you loved me like I loved you in life

but you can never as long as you remain with your wife

so goodbye

Reviews

[Chris Shaw]

Many a married man has caught the eye of a young woman. This type of character wants to have his cake and eat it. They very rarely leave their wives and leave a trail of heartbreak behind. I felt that here in your lines. Painful way to learn.

Chris