Celestial Body

I see my mistake

Finally the Lord keeps me awake

I am back at this same place

I cant stay

I dont know how to leave

I realize now what was in my way

The allure of the fantasy

A cure to my lonely

Yet I see he doesnt love me only

He is fine to bang me and go

Its all the same flow

I hope tomorrow brings something new

I already miss you

I miss you body and soul

Yet he only misses my warm body

My warm heart

I am glad to be his candle in the dark

Where is my star

My class mate stuck a needle in me

She was astonished to find I didnt bleed

That was God reminding I am a celestial body

I belong to Him

I am not meant to stay

I am ready for my wings

Help me Lord to fly away

I am a fallen angel

Now I have reached the end of the spell

Just like in the movie with nicholas cage

Meg Ryan's character dies away

I am her

Like a moth to the flame I have been burned

I must fly away never to return

Maybe one day true love will be learned

Untill then only God will heal the hurt

He will lift my curse

Why am i so unlovable

so huggable and fuckable

Thats about it

This is what the cards revealed

I see God offering my wings suddenly healed

He says you were distracted by a dream

Like a little spark of firefly

Now you are a completely transformed butterfly

There is no reason to cry

With Him only I will touch every star in the sky

i just have to learn to say goodbye

He will cry for me inside

Yet I find he doesnt really fit me in to his life

So I go to another place and time

Where God reminds me i am loveable

The class mate stuck a needle in me

I dont bleed

i am a celestial body.