Poison Paradise

My heart hears your voice and I want to be there. 

I care,but this is toxic. 

A poison paradise. 

Thats the only love I know. This how he makes me feel inside. 

So I have to leave the country. 

Since he won't let me go and I don't want him to. 

The vision is clear this can't be our destiny

There is nothing to do. I can't reply to your voice mail messages.

he is on my blocked list. I guess we were always destined to miss 

Its not what I choose to be but its been 6 years

i know you just want my body dears

I leave you a handful of my tears

You are hurt I blocked you

I am hurt you leave me feeling confused

I guess we walked by each other's path maybe our hearts and souls were so crazy and sad 

in each other we found a magic that distracted from a life so tragic.

I don't know. I must let go. I must continue learning how.

Although I miss you deep down in my soul

Our fates is not ours to control

I long to reply

I long to hear you one more time

Yet you still have a wife

Although its just a walk in the park

I still feel left in the dark

There is no place for me in your life

How many more times must my heart break apart

I write out the more I don't want to leave him ignored

Yet how can i re-open the door

I am not stupid anymore

I will leave the country

Should I tell him I must leave

I feel it will still be me playing naive

i just have to cry it out and grieve

Accept the fact we can never be

As long as he has a wife

I can never be in your life

We thought this would be for fun

Then why can't you let me go

Crazy and addicted

it can't be love

i don't know

its just a game

I must fly away

I won't be played

Be careful fellow lovers and humans

There is no advil for heartache.

My heart hears his voice on the line

Calling my name

Sounds like he is losing his mind

I want to be there

I still care

I miss him so much

Its toxic

All I feel inside is a poison paradise

Let it just fade away

He will forget the pain someday

It will burn in my veins always

So I tell you once again be careful with the hearts you break

There is no advil for heartache

I will be fine get over it in time

Yet the scars live on for all life

There is no one to blame

I couldn't ignore the shining light of his smile

I must burn the bridge

Let it turn to ash all the paradise and magic we had

All the butterflies crying to be hatched from the caterpillar cocoon

I must leave you 

leave our love between the stars and moon

Forever it will shine

i know now you can't be mine

So I Must leave the country go cry and grieve feel the new me

All though I don't want to

All thats left to hide is a poison paradise