Moments of mystery

Life is a mystery

I don’t care what you think of me

I love thee

Its true

I can’t deny

I want him between my thighs

I dream of him every day and night

I am on my knees praying to my good Lord for mercy

I can’t erase the feeling within

Please Lord take away the sin

Wave over us from a divine hand

Fill us with love and compassion

Help us understand

He text me but again he is too busy to respond

Oh come find me my sweet love

Demon or angel from above

Its too late to stop

We made love too many times to count

I just can’t erase I just have to accept I love him forever for now

Even if it burns

There is still many lessons we need to learn

Life is a mystery

Why does he keep texting me?

Maybe oh maybe God send mercy

Make him love me eternally

He says it feels the best with me

Yet he is at work everyday is so busy

why even bother

can’t get another lover

i would never wish for him to suffer

yet I can never truly love another

I will just hope

Keep it alive

Sweep all the fragments of love to light the starry sky

Pray that soon you will be tired and want to stay eternally  by my side

Its a foolish dream

I have to try harder to find someone new

Seems like i am just drowning in the hopes and dreams of me and you

Nothing is what it seems, there is nothing more I can do

Yet in my heart I hear the voice of God and hope forever gleams

I tried to fly away

Still stuck in this foolish game

oh my sweet love why am I treated this way?

Meanwhile in another part of the bay

This guy I text with from plenty of fish

tells me I am the one he wants to kiss

While deep in my heart there is only one i truly miss

There is nothing I can do

He is the best for me too so it seems

Yet he is at work, with her everyday so busy

Why even bother

can’t get another

He never wishes for me to suffer

yet he is psychologically damaged

only he can find the right bandage

i can’t judge

aren’t we all looking for a little love

someone to just feel the best with

I could get another fish

he is my only wish

on my knees i pray for God’s mercy

I need him by my side

without him Iam losing my mind

With him I don’t know who I am inside

All I can do is hope

Keep it alive

Sweep all the fragments of love to light up the starry sky

With or without I am alone

Maybe I am used to it

I embrace the single

its good to be on my own

I try to write my poems

I got to make my happiness in my home

It doesn’t rely on the guys

It doesn’t matter

Without the dream I won’t shatter

Yet I feel i am weak

I want to be strong

I want to be confident if this is where I belong

I will just hope

Someday, Someway

There is a place for us

I know this is more than lust

Maybe i am blind

Wrong or right

We have come too far to erase it all in my heart

So don’t worry

No matter what becomes I won’t shatter or fall apart

With or without I am alone

Sitting on the couch writing my poem

Feeling the happiness that is my own in my home

When we kiss I feel like a dancing fairy

Why text if not sure

Just playing with me is that the wanted future

We are drowning from the reeds that are so hairy

I quit eating beef and dairy

Its so hard when it comes to us

Breathing is barely

Nothing in the air

i feel dead and not there

Please give me your love

Tell me you care

Strip off my clothes

leave me naked

leave me bare

don’t come back if you are afraid of love to dare

how long must i wait

if its just lust then please let it fade

it true love then please stay

come find me don’t waste another minute another day

you know i am the best

yet you leave me for this sorry test

when we kiss i forget about the rest

i am floating in the air like a dancing fairy

yet we all know they aren’t real

just like the way he feels

so i guess its ok he doesn’t come

we both know it was never love

he would treat me better

yet i can’t let go

being with him for me is like finding buried treasure

it might be just me dreaming away

finding her wings floating in the air

from words written by shakespeare

even romeo and juliet didn’t get to be together

not happily ever after forever

i will just relish the memory

like a discovered buried treasure

when he kisses me i am a dancing fairy

they never die they just keep flying in the sky

feeling the stars and everything airy

so thats how i will be

nothing broken in me

my wings take me up to the heavens

just like the way it felt when we were kissing

i am dancing in the starry sky like a fairy

yet i look down at the earth and remember its him that i am missing in these moments of mystery