Return to Me

In the time of black skies and moonshine

He texts me says I want to see you, are you off tonight?

I reply with my text of yes

The time of our conversation is very lagged

He says he is too busy but he wants me I am the best one

Now I see that he is just f*****g me up

If I am the best one why not just close up the shop

All my guy friends never let stuff get in-between them and the best sex

I don’t need the answer

In his kisses I felt like a fairy dancer

All of this pretty words I write to describe is just bull s**t

As on the Facebook page he walks his dogs with her, his wife

Oh please dear sir just go get the f**k out of my life

I don’t love you anymore, goodbye

I am done with all your lies

Stop playing with my mind

I leave you behind

I ask God why

As I cry lying in the bed we made

As everything starts to fade

I wake and I feel empowered

I know God yanked me up in this dark hour

I did my 6 minute workout

Ran and walked with Kiddo outside

I am sitting on the couch purging all these emotions from my mind

I have no reason to hide

I have no reason to cry

God said you loved and you got burned

Thats the lesson to learn

Now to me you return

He was never supposed to have you yet I wanted him so bad I just couldn’t see the facts

He cast me out long ago

I was never in

Just sitting on his lap as he came with in and out in the cold

As I sit here my thoughts get perverse

Maybe this is what I deserve

I loved all the dirty things we do

I thought there was love between me and you

Why does that make it ok?

I get so confused in a land of vegas and the red light district exists

Where men and women watch pornhub to figure out how to love

Meanwhile lawmakers propose gay people and adulterers should be stoned

Tennessee starts to ban gay couples adopting kids of their homes

In the news the 15 year old kid runs with with the 47 year old man

How did the world get so bad?

Was I just some girl he could f**k in his van?

Screw with me just because he can?

How did I confuse it for love?

Was what I feeling butterflies?

or some professional manipulator f*****g up my mind?

I leave him behind

I will live my life more kind

everyone has their own heartache

We don’t need more mistakes to be made

We need more love in this earthly place

More respect for everyone’s sacred space

Joe Biden and the like have to learn these ways

Use an umbrella bag when it rains

No one wants to fall on the floor and feel unending pain

It should be love, compassion and grace that pays our ways

One day we will learn forgiveness each day

Find a way to break through the rage

When to God we return

I give up the evil

i give up the dream

He wasn’t what he seemed

Yet I loved it when he was in me

Its just an illusion

Mere mirage and confusion

Today God opened my eyes

Yanked me awake

These red flags I see

I am finally free

In this storm I forgive me and thee

I let go and cling to my inner strength and peace

Breathing in courage I return to me