Bandage

Maybe we are both psychologically damaged

In each other we have found a bandage

I don't choose this path for the malice

I drink his kisses from this given chalice

In his arms I am the queen of the palace

I don't know how to be without

I don't know what to do right now

I need him

I want him

I know its wrong

I tried to keep him blocked

I didn't know Apple would save his voice mails

I didn't know he would love a note in the actual box

Meanwhile Mr. Right isn't here tonight

It gets lonely sometimes

No one keeps me interested like his kiss

Nothing makes me move the way he does when he says, "Hey Princess"

I didn't like it before

Now I can't wait for him to walk in my door

We don't go out

We used to before go for coffee

watch movies

We walked on the beach

He gave me rides to places

He rode with me to BART for one work morning

I thought it was f*****g strange

I write these words on the page

To find peace, release find a way to forgive me

I know we aren't meant to be

I will just end up again saying good bye

 All my friends say I should leave him behind

The advice echoes in my mind

Yet I miss him tonight

I am stuck

Am I his prisoner for life?

Is this where i need to be

Then I think we are overreacting

Whats the harm in dating?

He says whats the harm in doing what we like?

He says he feels psychologically damaged

In each other we have found a bandage

Some place to go when we need sexual healing

He says its making love

He has so much feeling

Even when he says he wants to f**k the s**t out of me, he means make love with me

I don't know what to do

I want to leave him and I dont

I am smarter then this but something in my heart prevents me from walking away

Why didn't he let me keep blocking

Why did he wonder where i was

why does he care if its just a game

why do humans do things this way

Oh Lord Jesus please keep me safe

I think I am psychologically damaged

In you I know is my merciful bandage

Fix us with your love

Send us guidance from above

I never went looking for him

I didn't choose this sin

I just can't let go

I love him so