This trail of butterflies

My favorite female singers are Lana Del Rey and Mariah Carey

They always help me through the day

I don’t want to write about him today

I just want to remember who I am before he froze my brain with his embrace

With his charming voice

Who was I without the discovered joy?

I was someone good before I ever thought of a boy

Now here I am all messed up because of them

Why can’t I find my lover the one I need for life?

I know in my heart we don’t have a future

I tried to believe but I can’t just believe in the lie

Yet I miss him so much inside

So if he won’t be mine then I have to remember how to move on without this time

I have to remember who I am

I was a girl who dreamed of Stanford

My sister said I wanted to be a veterinarian 

I wanted to care for the dogs and cats and cute animals like that

Now here I am working two retail jobs that don’t pay much

It don’t matter because now all I want is his love

Distracting the truth with things in the news

Trying to enjoy the view

Nothing erases this feeling

I want you

You call me your girl, your baby

Are you my man?

Oh this distance is driving me crazy

I need you but how can I say

I lost so much

I can’t lose myself at all

I dream of us walking on beaches

Walking beside me close for me to be reaching

Oh Lord please grant true the dreams I am dreaming

I want to love and be loved

Just one man for life

I thought there would be more in this trail of butterflies

I just find myself lost in the night

Inbetween lonely and solitude

I just take refuge in the vivid memory so beautiful

It hurts to to love you

I still love you

Its just the way I feel

I guess I need to so I can heal

Please don’t break my heart

Call out to me when you are lost in the dark

I made my vow under the stars

In your arms

Nothing will pull us apart

On my bed as you kissed my forehead

There is a destiny making me not regret

There are still butterflies alive yet

One day, my prince will come to stay

Till then I will take refuge in the vivid memories we made

It hurts to love you

I still love you

Its just the way I feel

I need to so I can heal

I tried to think of something new

For another kind of view

I always think of you

It hurts to love you

Yet I still do