Salvation

I won't let her keep you

I decide that she will have to share

He is the one who decided to play unfair

I wrote a thousand poems over this affair

Its something I never planned

Its something I tried to run away from

Yet there is this little problem

He misses me a lot and I miss him too

Why do humans play the way we do?

What kind of game is this?

Foolishness!!!

Yet I too gave in with weakness

God deliver me from temptation

Help me find salvation

I am at your knees begging for mercy

Forgive me

I love thee

I love him

I want him to choose me

I want him to leave her

I don't want to hurt another

I don't want to hurt either

I let it go

I know only one is one control

At least we had some time together

Stolen moments of pleasure

Yet memories to treasure

if we can't love right then leave my side

Yet he knows as I say it he don't believe it

He won't let me go

I don't want him to he knows

We play and play

Till we lose all the feeling so there is no heartache

What happened to the human race?

We separated love and sex?

Priests, rich men and women abuse and confuse

Where is the good?

I lost it in me

I can't even see

All there is in front is the envy

I don't want to lose

Yet we knew from the start

The path is so very dark

He captured me with his heart

Now he pulls me a part

Yet i can't leave

Torture and pain never felt so good

I want to make love to him again I can't deny this truth

So here I am writing it out

Trying to make sense of the insanity

Trying to clear the air of this big cloud

Trying to find the way to feeling happy

Trying to find the way to who i used to be

Yet I am stuck

All I can think about is him and his embrace

Will I be in it again?

Even that is uncertain

I am left captured wondering what happened to the human race?

Somewhere we still struggle to hold on to goodness and grace

I know God will lead us there one sweet day

Till then I confess all this stuff in my brain

I want him to want me

i want him to need me

I want to feel ecstasy

Please God grant me happily ever after with him

Forgive us for the sin

Deliver me from the foolishness

Deliver me from temptation 

Cure me with salvation.