Dreaming of new

He hardly texts anymore

When I say Hi how are you?

His reply is I am fine I miss you I am just so busy with work

I guess you are just not that in to me

Cause we all have work to do but we should make time for me and you

I realize now there is no we, now us, just one fool which is me

Together our bodies were happy

When we got together

Yet the separation of time is forever

Maybe he found someone skinnier, sexier, or he just wants to stay with his wife

Telling me he is separated

Its all complicated

He got no heart left in his soul

What were you doing with me though?

He knew what I couldn't be

Still he kept coming around

All I see in the mirror is all the ugly

We didn't make love

I was just the concubine for him to f**k

Now he is no longer enchanted and its all bad luck

Why do I feel sad

I just kept believing in the dream and thats bad

Envisioning over the wrong isn't grand

Sometimes its all you have

He couldn't follow the moon glow to the good life

I have so much to offer but you aren't interested  lover

So I have no more tears left to cry

I am not going to die

I breathe new life for the dreaming of new

Someone better than you

A better man

Who can love me the way he is supposed to

Someone who makes time for me

Doesn't leave me crying and confused

I am actually grateful that the texts gets less and less

How could I believe we were meant to be for happiness

How could i believe we were pretty

When I look in the mirror all I see is the ugly

I am trying to recover

I am trying to not feel the bother of the annoyance that he brings me

I guess he just wanted attention

What about me? why all this pretension?

All my friends warned me but there was no prevention

He left me groomed

Naked and used

Thrown away after all the abuse

I hope it felt good

He told me it felt the best

Now I know why

You like the attention because its not you getting confused

Its ok, I will be alright

I have no tears left to cry

I am still butterfly

Dreaming someone that looked like you

Dreaming of a new