The Anger of Goodbye

He borrowed love

He can't be blamed if there is no promise of forever

There were good times when we were together

Maybe it was stolen or there was a loophole while his marriage remains broken

I can't stay open all the time

I deserve a love in this life that won't feel like it cuts like a knife

There is so much drama because I am in to the poetry I have to release all this anger in my mind

The anger that comes along with saying goodbye fills my red rage filled sky

I ask why but there is no answer

When I prayed I thought you were the one from God

He had a JC tattoo on his chest

Why so many dumb tests?

I couldn't help but kiss him

He waited 4 years to get in my pants

I dont understand

What happened to the man?

Why is it so hard to trust?

Why are we just investing in lust?

Love is right there

It flies through the air, whispers in our hair, bring musical serenades to the ear

Love is everywhere dear

Yet we choose to be blind

I can't say the words and he can't be here

I was in the ER he didn't even come 

I need love to lift me up where I belong

Why do we get so infatuated with just one guy who has been married 5 times?

I guess I am jealous because I want to be married just once

I foolishly let him borrow my love

I hope it made him feel nice not like it cut like a knife

I hope he made up with his wife

I hope he leaves me alone for all my life

There is so much anger in this red rage filled sky

Flames and darkness are what is in my sight

It is my mind painting the scene when in the anger of goodbye

He didn't tell me why

He just ghosted me till the evidence connected through the lines of my mind

He borrowed my love he was no angel from above

I wish I could write a lovely love poem

I was he was there to kiss me when I come home

Alas all I have is the angry ghost with a heart that refuses to say goodnight

Yet the more I hold on the more he vanishes through the light

When dreaming one can become so blind

Now all I have is rage and tears as I wade through the anger of goodbye.