let Go

You're gone...but not forgotten.

Let Go

Those sleepless nights

Spent thinking of you,

Feeling like I could sleep

For a whole day or maybe even full weeks,

After losing you to your cruel behavior.

Staring at an old framed photo

Of us,

The small ceremony in a village

Church, together with joined hands.

My body is heavy from the

Exhaustion of it all,

The grief and the constant pretending

To be okay, weighing me down.

While others go on with their lives,

Unaware of my inner pain and my dissolving

Soul inside me,

I want out of my tired body,

To live so fully in my creativity and responsive

Philosophies,

There's a deep wanting inside me,

So profound and extraordinary

With a strange rebirth apparent

And striving to come to the surface.

I must let go,

With closed eyes, I see so many colors

Dance and mix inside my head,

Familiar glares and lights of yesterday,

One spring evening with a bottle of rose wine

Tenderly felt in my heart,

That dream of love and peace with you,

We built a brick patio,

With ivy growing on the redwood walls,

The crisscross patterns of light coming through

The maple leaves above us,

A perfect place,

A love-story with your southern charm

And accent touching my ears,

Now a heavy iron gate guards those walls

Inside me,

Withholding and longing to be ancient

With no gray cedar shake house coming back to us

With the wrap around porch and blue ceilings,

All I hear now is white noise that doesn't go away,

It never does…

Even when I'm writing stories, it's a background noise

Invading my thoughts and interrupting my focus,

Like croaking frogs and noisy crickets,

An annoying reminder of our past,

I miss our wide front porch facing the road,

No more climbing pink roses or irises of sunset,

The louvered windows are gone and the white banister is broke,

A sweet scent remains in its place,

A fragrance that surrounds the dying structure like

Another world,

I think you planted your fragrance of the sea water

and the dead flowers

Are mixed in.

I'm still disheveled and a mess,

I long to unlock that heavy gate

And greet a stranger that utters words of success and encouragement

To let go and hobble forward to that helping hand. --J. E. Cook ©2017

 

 

Author's Note

Thank You!

Reviews

[Traci]

Such a sad write of love and betrayal. The emotional struggle of letting go is real and very heartfelt in this piece.

"And greet a stranger that utters words of success and encouragement
To let go and hobble forward to that helping hand."

Very powerful, as one seeks harmony with her own sense of truth.

[Josie E. Cook M. A.]

Thanks, Traci for your wonderful insight and review!

[Ruth]

Letting go is the hardest thing to do and it leaves a few scars along the way. Emotions and love are two of the hardest things to balance and cope with in my opinion...beautifully told Josie :)

[Josie E. Cook M. A.]

Thanks!
:)

[Sami Khalil]

"Now a heavy iron gate guards those walls
Inside me,
Withholding and longing to be ancient"

[Sami Khalil]

"After losing you to your cruel behavior.
Staring at an old framed photo
Of us"

[Sami Khalil]

A very sad confessional type poem. It tugs at the heart and soul. I guess we live and learn, move on hopefully to find greener pastures or better companionship. An excellent though sad poem.

[Josie E. Cook M. A.]

Thank you, so much for your thoughts during this sad week in October!

[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome happily.

[Coyote Poetry]

I agree my dear friend.
"I'm still disheveled and a mess,
I long to unlock that heavy gate
And greet a stranger that utters words of success and encouragement"
The above lines. Needed and we must return them. All of us need positive words and motivation of a kind heart. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote
To let go and hobble forward to that helping hand.

[Josie E. Cook M. A.]

TY!
I am glad you got it and reviewed this one.

[Coyote Poetry]

I did understand this one and you are welcome dear Josie.

[Lizzie]

The journey is difficult, the pain is real; I can almost feel the same sense of betrayal all over again yet comfort in what was... This piece is beautiful! The perfect way to allow the feelings to completely be expressed.

[Josie E. Cook M. A.]

Thanks! :)
Nice insights.