holes

12/2011

In despair I felt the place of my death in there

Without despair I have known this place as life

How I miss living there yet still I hold you, 

Here, now, just as beautiful as ever before

Untarnished in my heart even after all the

trials, still full of youthful endearment 

My heart sings as if this were our first touch

A realization that that never gets old

I could step through these holes eternally,

dancing away from the light, creating worlds

Of course I am dreaming, whittling away

at the building blocks cluttering my mind

 

     

Author's Note

Super Paper Mario actually inspired this..xx

Reviews

[SkinlessFrank]

I like the way this poem sits almost entirely within the mind, as if one were in the state between waking and sleep when our the regrets and high points of one's life float through thoughts, connected and unconnected, the pain and pleasure all there to be observed but no way to act upon it.

[Coyote Poetry]

I like the poem. Some logic in the words. When the pieces fall apart. Impossible to be put together. I enjoyed the complete poem. A strong ending to a outstanding poem.
Coyote

[bookworm]

I find your preoccupation with death and beauty rather intriguing. You speak of them both with respect in equal measures. I've always been fascinated with the shadow side of the self and poetry has been instrumental in my facilitating a more balanced way of incorporating those aspects of myself into my life in a less destructive way. For me, I think I insisted on holding my gaze on death bc it gave me an illusory sense of power over it. Just like I did with past pain. I was the kid who wouldn't look away from the hate in my mother's eyes as she was slapping me silly. I think I felt like, "f**k you, I'm not giving you my fear too". In retrospect, I can see it was my way of controlling atleast my reaction amidst what could have otherwise felt like an utterly hopeless situation. I hope you don't feel invaded by my commentary. I just felt deeply impacted by your expression and wanted you to know I appreciate your unique way of conveying your perspective. Its clear you are incredibly smart and insightful and wise beyond your years. Also, thank you for the kind review yesterday. I appreciate it very much.

[Seshat Nidaba]

I am enjoying reading you the more I do, great stuff.