I stagger aloof around this social setting unbalanced and full of hard liquor dripping with sweet supercilious shrouded in my cloak of not caring pushing all the feelings of resentment deep into the recesses of my soul this is my night of counterfeit relief my time of blinding my rendered heart the days of caring and hoping are over the cover of darkness will be my escape shots of shine accent my swift fall into this abyss of self destruction the alcohol that courses through my veins mask the pain that cause my body to contort I've been left to my own blunders abandoned to cavort under a gawking sun dismissed to wreak havoc using my distaste my fury will carry me over and away
I can seriously relate to this. While I don't drink I do have a strong desire to do something to replace this ache that I feel. Haha as you might have already noticed I smoke and while that helps it doesn't always do the job like I'd like it to. Plus I don't have the funds to carry on such a habit. But I do know that pain and I do know that desire to make it stop..at least for a moment and sometimes it seems like stopping it for that moment with whatever it takes is worth the consequences we'll have to face later. Something I have learned though..facing the pain and pushing through it, even though it hurts is so much better in the end. Because if you do that, the pain will go away for forever! :)
Lovely write joshua and thank you for sharing
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You discribed this so well, and nailed it sweet Josh! I guess your write shall be recognized by many. I love it you dare, and try to write about this subject. Great work! xo
This was a very well written piece. The message in it was clear too...but you know....things will eventually get better. You just have to think ahead into your future and just imagine that it will be great. In the end you will be happy and forgetting about what is causing the pain in the first place. Thanks for sharing.
I can seriously relate to this. While I don't drink I do have a strong desire to do something to replace this ache that I feel. Haha as you might have already noticed I smoke and while that helps it doesn't always do the job like I'd like it to. Plus I don't have the funds to carry on such a habit. But I do know that pain and I do know that desire to make it stop..at least for a moment and sometimes it seems like stopping it for that moment with whatever it takes is worth the consequences we'll have to face later. Something I have learned though..facing the pain and pushing through it, even though it hurts is so much better in the end. Because if you do that, the pain will go away for forever! :)
Lovely write joshua and thank you for sharing
I love the way you put so much imagery in this.
I picture someone sitting therewith the bottel in there hand and "alcohol that courses through my veins".
Once more another great write. :)
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