still

06/2011

yes I still see the world

through mascara tipped eyes

          I still sit silently on the ground

          and contemplate the small things

I still hold firm to epic ideas

such as true love and world peace

          I am still a hopeless romantic 

          forever stuck in this fairy tale

anime still burns my television screen

skinny jeans and etnies still fill my closet

          Even though the majority

          of today's youth has taken our lead

I still don't follow the crowd

silently cutting my own trail

           I still gender bend

           call me what you will

f****t, sissy, freak

I will still stop to smell the flowers  

           I will still jump on my trampoline

           in the pouring rain <3 <3 <3

Author's Note

Reviews

[Lydia Shutter]

Jump on that trapoline, Joshua. The rain will not dampen spirit such as yours. It's not easy being different, but if you are true to yourself, you will always have inner peace. Lots of empowerment in this introspective write. Just one question...what are "etnies"? I have no clue. Well written. Lydi**

[joshua deathdealer]

Thank you so much. (: They are a type a shoe.

[Lydia Shutter]

Ohhhh....thank you for telling me! :)

[joshua deathdealer]

yw and thank you for your beautiful review.

[-Scribe in Style-]

true to ones individual identity - it is not easy making your own path nor not following the queues of the crowd. It takes a lot of strength.
Well written my friend!

[writing mojo]

a self worth never on shelved, but open for suggestion with a strong stable bind, which holds the pages of one's story, crafted without plots or boundaries just freed verses between the lines ...great piece

[joshua deathdealer]

insightful. thank you.

[joshua deathdealer]

Sweet Joshua, you are a beautiful person inside and out! and you should never change.... I feel honored to call you a friend, ;) nothing else than a beautiful friend, and a friend that's himself, totally, who is not afraid to be, and always, but always, makes me smile :) one who makes music, with whole his heart, one who writes poetry with whole his heart, and who lives the max, (I adore). Thanks for being you, just never change ok? :D

- Elisa

[joshua deathdealer]

i'm so excited. lol I thought that you guys had already read this poem. It's an older one. But no never gonna change. I can't. I too am honored to have you as a friend and am enamored with your poetry. I would like to see this this place make a change for the better. Like the old days. And I will be here writing and reviewing to help to make that happen. This place has so many memories for me and I hold them dear.

I remember the piece pretty well, I know it was one from 2011. ( was a bad reviewer last year ), hadn't much time, or real life ate me... I hope to be around more now... :) I'm enamored with yours too! there is a certain purity in it only a few have... which I adore. So happy to be back, and be with my true friends on here. (((YOU))) :D You make a change, definitely! and I wished with whole my heart, there were more people like you, on this planet. I fall for unique ones. ;D for me too! those days, when we walked in the dark, and light, but also when we laughed out loud!!! miss those times, but they are coming back, believe me ;D xx

[joshua deathdealer]

Birds of a feather flock together. I'm told. I suppose it is the muse inside us that is connected. The poet inside us. Although from different walks of life we still come together and share the good and the bad and the laughs. (: It's beautiful. Here where I live sadly there are few I connect with but here, this place, you and my friends give me hope in this world. lol There is so much poetry on here from way back. As I go along I'm gonna try and go back to read and review those precious memories as life will allow. I'm glad you are back and I hope we all have years to come.

I hope that too my friend, yes, birds of a feather flock together! definitely! they shall meet, when they are a muse of the same wavelength~ I slowly go through your library, day by day, I can't wait to re-connect to all those pieces. This place has changed me in so many ways too, my point of view to real life changed by being here, also, I've laughed cried, danced, lived all on here... there is no place better than this one, if you ask me. I treasure my friends, and your art.

[Ruth]

Freedom here that moves me :) And I do like the fact this can be read in two different ways...clever hon ;) Beautifully voiced...you ARE a gem and a free spirit...stay so, let nothing or no-one squash that...

Wonderful writing xox

[Robbie~xoxo~]

You are beautiful soul, Joshua....never ever change the core being of who you are!
The poet in your heart shines bright... to smell the flowers shows your appreciation for life.
This is powerful, my friend! ....always be true to you!~xoxo~:)

[David Scott]

I like how this poem confirms the transformation I saw on your profile.
Total despair fading as light glimmers on the horizon. Now we see acceptance and affirmation of your heart.
You only have the person you are to day to love. Tomorrow may change or it may not, but still, we can choose to live what joy and happiness is availed or even only dreamed of in the now.
I love how you gently accept your own heart here.

[Crystal Marie Dreier]

This is really good, shows a lot of raw emotion!

[Amila Jay]

An awesome piece of writing:-)

[i-love-you-boo♥]

This is really amazing writing all your stuff is you got a real talent