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03/2013

            Sometimes I just want to stab myself

             In the face with a pencil

           Anger built on top of seething lies

          Is what my stomach feeds upon

          Worms could crawl out of my eyes

                  And I’d just laugh

            If they’d let me I’d pour a bucket

           Of broken glass down my throat

             Or beat my head continuously

                    Against my knees

                      My hate rages

              Demons swim in my frontal lobes  

           Working their way to my fingertips

 

                              S m i l e

 

                       W e  a r e  h e r e  

Author's Note

image: Padded Cell. by Kreatur-im-Spiegel

Reviews

[AprilRN1210]

ummm, wow. intensely disturbing comes to mind... I thought my demons were bad... Jeez... That is some rage for sure, it just feels pointed inwards instead of out at the world.... It is definitely vivid, thought-provoking, and moving... powerful write indeed.

You are in a state of decomposition ... you're almost there, your journey has lasted long enough, it's a long road to peace ... where you can smile... aaah fantastic imagery... even with all these worms in my eyes... I still can smell the other side.

- Elisa

[Sophy Freebirds]

Uncontrallable rage within is let out... reading this i wanted to kick myself inside out.. powerful writing indeed

~Sophy

[sharonlee]

Vividly intense... made me want to scratch an impossible itch!

[joshua deathdealer]

Haha. That is how it felt writing this. Thank you kindly.

[Gabby Nieves]

I f*****g love this so much.

[joshua deathdealer]

Thank you!! Very much.

[Cahjli Symes]

holy s**t that was like intense....very intense.

"Anger built on top of seething lies
Is what my stomach feeds upon" i can related due to me being lied to a lot by my own friends and family. I'm not too sure whether or not its stating your forcing yourself to smile within the events or being told by others to smile when you really deep down inside don't want to at the moment and it furthers the tension. either way this is very good. I love your style; It's dark, intense and realistic raw emotions in which we all have yet people are to ashamed to admit

[joshua deathdealer]

lol Yea it was pretty intense to write. To be honest it's the demons forcing the smile I speak of. Thanks again Cahjli.

[Cahjli Symes]

not a problemo

[Matching Socks]

Jeez, awesome job here Josh.
I feel rage but this magnified 10x.