Leaving Cloud Nine

Most likely my last romance

Leaving Cloud Nine

With hands trembling

And eyes overwhelmed with tears,

I learned that someone else

Had taken the place that I desired so greatly

 

A pause in my chest;

My heart frozen inside of a painful chamber

A mind that felt broken

With no specific reason

 

I knew that it would happen one day;

That you would find someone who made you feel as great as you made me

But not every day was full of bliss and happiness,

It was quite rare and hard to enjoy anything

 

I locked myself to you

And promised never to let go,

But now that there is no chance of “us”

I have to release this burden of sadness

 

It will be easier to walk through life

Without this emotional weight pulling me further down

But getting over everything about you

Is what will pain me the most

 

You are so incredibly smart

And I am sure that you know what and who is best for you

While I lay here wondering,

What now?

 

I made you more than you truly are;

An imperfect person,

And worshipped that person

More than anything else

 

Now I realize

That person was not you;

You are not faultless

You are a beautiful, amazing human

 

The endless nights of fantasizing about you

Will be reduced to nothing

The countless thoughts of you

Will become thoughts of school and where I want my life to go

 

People have told me to keep trying

People have told me to give up

And I have been undecided who to listen to

But now I know which way to go

 

It will be an agonizing path

And I will still be tempted to think about you

But I feel it is the best road to take

So I can focus on finding someone who loves me as much as I love them

 

I just wanted to thank you

For helping me learn more about love

Without you, I would have become an ignorant person

And not have taken time to understand people

Author's Note

My first poem so please help me with any mistakes