Ghosts of Time

As the moon sets over the horizon
I sit and think about you
And what our lives have become.
Who would have ever guessed
It would come down to this?
Pain, longing, regret
Broken dreams and shattered hearts
A ghost of my former self.
I threw away a lot for something that never was
I could have been so much more
But would I be who I am today?
How different would things be?
Fireflies dance in the distance
Their light, tiny beacons of hope
And teardrops of despair.
The melancholy of bittersweet memories
Strangles the senses.
The heart bleeds
For what was
For what could have been
For time that was wasted
That can never be restored.
Love that quickly turned to poison
And I drank my fill
Until I was dizzy and falling
With no one to catch me
Ever so intoxicated
Not watching where I stepped
Or where I was going
Until it was too late
And part of me died
Shattered and broken
I reached out for you
But you were walking away
Not looking back at what you had done
I had been so innocent and trusting
And you preyed on that
As a wild animal on the hunt
Until it was gone
And I didn’t know who I was
But I was lost
Alone
And scared
Without comfort for my dying soul
Or my breaking heart.
I learned that day that good-bye is forever
And you can’t go back.
Time is both friend and foe
Of the heartbroken and desolate
Healing, hurting and changing
Building up and tearing down walls