"undecided"

self explanatory

 

The abrupt gong of the father clock

Wakes me to the morn.

Deprived of the suns smiling rays

I get dressed in a solemn form.

 

A black dress fit to my shape

And glassy pearls of white,

A look for a fun event

If worn another night.

 

Outside the house cars have aligned

As the processions readies to proceed, 

The police escort me to the front

So i may take the lead.

 

The ride provides me privacy

Like a glass house on the brightest day,

I smile with an unavoidable hope

A stone will not be thrown my way.

 

Arriving to the main event

With the body in the back,

The church is like a silhouette

Of bodies draped in black,

 

The choir hums amazing grace

As the glossy oak casket is brought in,

A line forms to see the ceased

And make belated amends.

 

The American flag is folded taut

As salty mascara streaks line my face,

With kindled hope I still cling

That papa is in a better place.

 

With last words whispered in privet

 Light pink rose heads are placed upon his grave,

I cannot surrender my last goodbye

For its beautiful memory I must save.

 

                                  J.B<3

Author's Note

this is the third revision of this poem. i think this may be my final copy.