Hell

Kat wakes up realizing what she did and has difficulties coping with Blakes death.

I woke up the next morning with a rocking headache. I saw Austin sleeping on the floor right by me. I sat up. I went to the restroom. I looked in the mirror. I looked horrible. I heard a knock on the door. I opened it, it was Austin. He came in and locked the door. He sat me up on the sink. "Are you ok?" As he examined my face. "Yes stop." "I can't f*cking believe you did that." I looked down remembering what I did last night. "I'm sorry." "No sorry, that's all you have to say?" "If that guy didn't stop you, you would've cheated on me!" "Austin I know I'm sorry ok?" "Maybe we shouldn't be together." "Don't say that." "Is that what you want?" "No, I'm sorry I was just I don't, Blake he was my all and he's gone now!" "I'm your all now!" "You are, but Blake was my first!" "You know I got to." He left the bathroom. I heard the front door slam. I jumped. I threw my brush at the mirror making it shatter. All I could think was why me? I grabbed a piece and cut my arm vertically deep. I grabbed my arm and tried to stop the bleeding. My dad ran in. "Katherine, what is going on?" I was holding my arm. I was bleeding alot more than I thought. "Dad I can't feel my arm.." I started crying. "Oh my gosh, Booger call 911 now!" "Wait why?" Booger came running in. "Oh my gosh.." He said quietly. "Booger now!" "Okay I am." I started to feel unconscious. I closed my eyes. "KATHERINE STAY WITH ME!" My dad yelled. "Yes my sister she is um she cut her self she's bleeding, she's lost alot of blood!" I heard my brother say into the phone. "I don't know the address, dad what's the address!?" Booger yelled. "I don't know, go outside and look, hurry!" Booger ran outside, he came back in. "Okay they're on there way." He kneeled down by me.  "I'm going to go get Austin!" Booger yelled. I opened my eyes a little , everything was blurry. "Katherine please, God please don't take her, please God, please." I heard my dad praying as he held me in his arms. Austin ran in. He bent down towards me. "Oh my gosh what happen?" "I don't know I heard something shatter and I ran in here and the mirror was broke and she was holding her arm, she's not conscious." My dad said. "This is all my fault, I made her upset and told her maybe we should break up..., I didn't know, I hurt her, I..I" He kept stuttering. "Blake died, and Austin you were being an a*s, I can see why she did this!" Booger yelled at Austin. "LOOK I DIDN'T KNOW SHE WAS SUICIDAL!" Austin yelled. There was a knock on the front door. Booger ran got it. The paramedics ran in. "I need everyone out!" The paramedic said. "He got a flashlight and blurred it into my eyes. "She's unconscious, she has a lot of blood." Two more more paramedics came in. "Come on get her up on the hurdle." They picked me up and rushed me to the van. "Is anyone riding with her?" "Austin go ahead." My dad said. He got in with me. "Lets go guys, we need to get there asap!" The paramedic yelled. I saw my dad and Booger get in the car behind us. Austin sat my me. The male paramedic hooked IV into me. "What's her name?" "Katherine, Kat." Austin said. "Ok Kat I need you to stay with us ok, were going to get you there ASAP, stay with us." "Baby I love you, please don't go, I can't,.. I can't live without you, Kat please, I didn't mean anything I said, baby please, God don't take her, please God, please, baby I love you." He was crying. My heart monitor went flat, my heart was no longer beating, I was dead.