A Change Has Come

It’s easy to look into my past and point fingers

If it wasn’t for this person or that situation

maybe I would have become more than I am

I am a product of the society I was raised in

 

More human bullshit delivered to others

in an attempt to skip and evade the truth

I am an only child with the mind of a criminal

my arch enemy, greatest foe, is simply myself

 

Anger ruled me ever since I was a child

I would hold it in hoping to suppress it

the effect was a covered pot boiling furiously

until I exploded bringing forth vengeance and violence

 

alcohol and drugs were my one true escape

I was lost for years in the underbelly of Philadelphia

hanging with original gangsters doing gangster stuff

even with my education I am no different than them

 

I just talk more proper, walk more upright

I have the ability to knock an old lady in the head

then sit down in a corporate meeting with a vice president

I am a chameleon able to fit into all walks of life

 

under my boyish qualities, and rough interior

I am that same frightened little boy

scared of everyone and anything around me

violence and vengeance are just tools I used

to keep you away from the real me

 

I am a spiritual being, god fearing and believing

drawing and painting are my hobbies

writing is my passion

I love all people more than I love myself

 

Love freed me from my fears

in her eyes I found salvation

her arms taught me security

and her faith showed me forgiveness

through her I became a new man

 

one who learned the value of giving over taking

she became my inspiration the reason I drew breath

now I sit alone with only my tears to comfort me

remembering her who forever changed me

 

Rest in peace my first love and best friend  

Reviews

Magnificent! Its so deep and just wonderful!

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

you take the breath not just from the body but the soul with raw honesty~ sincerity~a full on look inside yourself offering it into the cradle of the world in effort to open other eyes thay may be seeing through the murk of pain~ incredible writing~