Nothing but Pain

I wrote this when I was feeling down because all my friends were out with their boyfriends and I was at home alone.

There they go again, off to some place I'm not welcome.
And while they're out, I'm at home crying by myself.
Not over a broken heart but rather a heart that has yet to be broken.
So why do I feel like my heart is broken?
Why does it feel like it's been ripped out by every person who walks past when no one has cared enough to even try to touch my heart?
Why is it that everyone has had their fair share of it all, the drama, and yet I haven't had any of it?
Because while some girls are having their doors broken down by boys, I sit alone in my room and the only noises I hear from my door are the knocks from my sister to tell me dinner is ready.
So I dream and wish and hope that one day my time will come.
That one day I will meet him and I will live happily ever after, but that's just a fairytale.
Just a myth, a figment of my imagination.
Because to love a girl like me would be like to walk on water, impossible to anyone except Jesus. 

Author's Note

Please ingnore the grammar problems, there will be so many in everyhing I write. Please don't tell me it's awful. Just positive reviews.

Reviews

[EverEmma]

This is beautiful

[EverEmma]

You are beautiful. Trust me, I am jealous, your pretty clothes, gorgeous eyes, perfect hair. You are loved every day. This is heart wrenching for me to read. Don't be discouraged, you are still young. This is a very sweet yet very true piece. Its not fairytale.