Indiscretion

Love is not easy, not for the careless and selfish.

Indiscretion

 

 

I left her

High and dry

Strung out on lack of affection

Without compassion

I left her

Without a why

Twenty years imploded

Exploded like a balloon

Done in by a wayward erection

An unguarded moment

A lapse of instruction

Passionate challenges tend to overwhelm me

Unhinge my intellect

Dismantle my foundation

Bedrock bottom

Could have been a contender

Instead of an emotional bender

A relapse of reason

A heartless affair

God survives in shadows

The curves of a woman cure me of principle

Her vessel was flawless

Performed beautifully

I asked her method

She arranged an exhibition

The moment was stunning

But moments pass quickly

Reality is reality

Truth be told

Sex won’t heal a restless heart

Any more than trust can mend a broken one

She left me

In the heat of the summer

Like hot bourbon on an empty stomach

I cannot contain such bitterness

I let go of the anger at me

At her

At her

At me

At her

All for no reason

No comfort

No peace

No relief

No lesson from the second kick from a mule

No school

No guru

No sponsor

She left me

To wonder

If I could be different

Change unlike the seasons

Not repeat old patterns

Act out on impulse

Instinct is not intuition

Intuition is smarter

More focused

More reliable in the long view

More humble

I left her

Or

She left me

Depending on whom you talk to

Her friends are liars

Mine are indifferent

I am making my way

Back to the beginning

Regrets anonymous

I hope you are healthy

Whole and inspired

I feel sick

Shattered and tired

I am a long way from where I want to be

But I am moving forward

Onward and upward

Like an ancient explorer

Lost but too proud to admit it

Dead but still fighting

Hopeful on the outside

Empty inside

A contradiction of conceits

A confederacy of dunces

Me and Ignatius

Chasing Don Quixote

Past the windmills of my mind

Indiscretion lacks valor

No honor in thievery

Faith holds value

In this time of restless angels

Pray for peace

Author's Note

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