I'm shadowed down

Posted Date: : Sep 28, 2010 9:56 AM

I touch my hair and if someone asked me why I cut it, I would run away..
My hair was a big part of me until my hair became my curse…
My hair attracted the worst of them all and It has stuck with me.
I am mad with myself and always will be.
I want to be invisible to beauty.
I need a transparent blanket to hide from the devil.
Even though I'm silent about what happened, I’d rather because they won’t forgive my weakness
I sinned because I loved and felt lost without him.
Now I’m shadowed down for what I’m known for.
Guilt since that day and I can’t forgive myself.
Treated like the typical wife
I don’t want to be named after that type
What hurts the most is that my feelings don’t matter
He has buried his pain and tears so I should too??
I will never change for the worst
Because you knew the real me first
Trust me, the hurt will come back when you live it with your kids
They will remind you of what you had to go through
Time will tell..