All I cant do is wait

Posted Date: : Apr 26, 2010 10:10 PM

My mind is tangled with words but I’m scared they will come out the wrong way
I’m speechless and I have nothing more that I can say
I’m now portrayed as a person that I never wanted to be
It makes me just want to stay away or even leave
Because I’m not a person to give up easily on something that I want so bad
Our laughter and all the smiles just turned to being upset and sad
I never really understood the quote ” Truth shall set you free”.
Yea, it does actually but you end up hurting others..
I’ve always been honest and this situation just whites out everything that I was and who I am
I really don’t know how to deal with this situation because its something I don’t know how to…
I don't know how to approach it?
Or how to fix it because its not like I can…
What other words can I say to make it better..
There’s nothing. Its impossible.
Not even a sorry will make up for what I’ve done.
It just makes me feel like I’m in the same family string.
Everything that I ever stood for just went out the door.
It just doesn’t make sense to me anymore.
I think I was in my lowest moment at that time.
Because I don’t even remember what came to this.
All I can do is wait.I guess.
I just can’t deal with this mess.
I’ve never felt so guilty in my life.
Upset to hear him sigh.
All because of me.
Scared to be left.
Hope he doesn’t love me any less..
All I can do is WAIT.