They all come back

Posted Date: : Oct 13, 2009 7:50 PM

 I'm not a person to really  HATE someone..
I have had a few people that I called my best friend in the past.
But slowly, they all came back to stay in contact with me.
I don't know what it is that makes them come back.
One of them said that there's just something about me LOL really...
I'm kinda overwhelmed because I always thought about them.
Even the ones I still don't talk to because of some situation..I still think of.
Of course, its normal to think of people from the past but I just wonder why
people that I didn't really want to stop talking to are meant to go away....
I feel like I am always in weird decisions and stuck in the middle of friendships
where I always have to choose just to avoid situations...
If you truly know me, you know I cherish friendships until it gets intense....
Then I feel like I have to break it..
I do know that I've hurt a few and betrayed others with my actions and I actually
regret for  meeting them because maybe their life would've been different without me.
I know I make an impact on each and every person that I meet because I just know.
If I didn't, then why would some of my ex best friends try contacting me...right?
Keeping friendships is a very hard thing.....
I really feel bad for some things that I've done to some X friends..
I was a true b***h because I knew our friendship was getting intense..
I wanted to get away and had not other way to do it but to play another character...
I didn't want to be the same person that they knew me as...
I wanted them to get mad at me so that I wouldn't be the one to tell them to go away.
And I wish I was able to tell em I'm sorry for doing it...
I still have a good heart.