His call

Posted Date: : Sep 23, 2009 11:08 AM

I know I shouldn't be writing but I can't help it

My hubby called me around 12:30 pm.

He said he's leaving from Miami at 3:40 p, and getting to Kentucky at 8 p.m

I was at the bank at that moment and I had to hold the tears...

His voice...

Just his voice...

I look at my kittens and they are still waiting for him to come back..

It hurts..it really does..

I can't describe the pain.

I can't even look at his clothes..

I don't even want to wash his shirts that have his smell..

pathetic huh...I know..

I feel numb.

Sometimes I eat...sometimes I just can't..

You know that feeling when you cry so much that if you cry one more time you have that feeling of vomiting?

I don't like this apartment anymore..

I dislike it!!

I need him!!!

I saved the dunkin donuts receipt lol..

On our last morning he bought me my favorite brownie.

I didn't want to let him go when I was saying good bye.

I can't drive because every 5 seconds my eyes get blurry.

I feel bad for my kittens because I can't be in this apartment for a long time..

I don't want to neglect them.

I hear my hubby's voice as he says " you'll be fine".

Well I need the strength to be strong..

because I can't deal with this s**t!!