I Don'tA Poem by Johee Poetry
Posted Date: : Jul 25, 2009 10:37 AM
"There is a difference between being strong and acting tough". This is what my husband said to me yesterday.. I keep thinking about it because I am trying so hard to ignore that fact that he is going away. I look at his face before I go to sleep and I can't picture him in that soldier suit. That horrible feeling won't go away. Why me? Why this situation ? Why the worst thing to be tested on? Because everyone knows I am weak when someone says good-bye. I hate good-bye or I'll see you later. The pain hits my heart and soul. A little of me dies when I have to force myself to let go. Especially when I force myself to NOT CARE. TO IGNORE. I've hidden this same pain constantly. When he smiles now, its hurts. When he kisses me on the forehead, it hurts. I told him I don't know what I will do without him. This is why every minute and second I can, I hug him and hold him. I don't want to let go.. I don't want to. Not my heart. Not my protector. Not my guidance. My EVERYTHING! I hate it. I really do. And I cannot be or act selfish. I have to pretend that I am happy for my family's sake.... I told him I keep dreaming of him going away. I had a dream I was running away from bomb's of fire. People around me running too.. I see myself walking towards a memorial wall. I grab a random sheet of paper and write " I LOVE YOU RONY". And I put it back on that wall for everyone to see.. I wake up with sadness and confusion. This wasn't part of my plan..but what was my plan in the beginning after all??? © 2011 Johee Poetry |
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Added on May 3, 2011 Last Updated on May 3, 2011 AuthorJohee PoetryMiami, FLAboutHello, my name is Johee and I am 25 years old. I'm currently living in Miami Florida I have been writing poetry for more than 10 years. please tell me what you think of my work. dont hesitate .. more..Writing
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