Shut Eyes, I cannot !

Posted Date: : Apr 1, 2009 11:59 PM

I try to close my eyes but something keeps  me awake

The discomfort of knowing that I hurt him because of something I said

I didn't mean it but I know it made a little scar on his heart

As I am falling asleep, I hear this loud vibrating noise coming from my side of the bed

I jump quickly and I look at my phone...

It could not be time to go to school!

I check my phone and nothing has changed..

I feel my heart beating because that sound scared me.

I am sitting here wandering if it was an imaginary sound or what?

I try to ignore it but then I start paying attention to other noises

Then minutes later I hear the sound of cars racing through the turnpike highway

It's about 2 A.M in the morning...

What are these stupid people thinking?

I just can't understand why an argument affects me so much that I cannot shut eyes

I cannot!

I guess I will wait till I slowly get sleepy to get myself to bed..

I am so awake and its crazy.

I don't even know if I took a small nap since 11 P.M today

Trying to sleep reminds me of back then

When I would try falling asleep, but then I start thinking of random things

Things like...

what will I eat for breakfast tomorrow?

Did I do all my class assignments?

Do I have to go pee?

Maybe I should call this or that person to say Hi. ;)

I know you understand when I say that your own mind can drive you nuts sometimes

And I am still thinking and still,

shut eyes

I cannot!

So f*****g frustrating man....