I still feelA Poem by Johee Poetry
Posted Date: : Nov 10, 2008 8:48 PM
I still feel this little grudge with my older brother... I feel excited to see him this 25th of November.. But at the same time I feel like he doesn't care... No phone calls or texts from his part.. My mom's excuse is " He is always busy" But not busy to call my them..right? It is this hate that I feel coming from my brother... It also has to do with my mom telling me what he supposedly told her.. She told me that he didn't like the way I was... So, I guess he can't accept me for the way I am... I've never felt accepted by my brother.... I mean I'm not a drug addict...or a bum.. I have gone through things that have made me get tough and go crazy on people But I am Me. I still feel like there is no point in getting excited because my brother won't accept Me. I hate the fact that he can't be there for me sometimes... But if he was here, he wouldn't be here for me anyway..... Just because he's not open with me... I wish he was... I still cry because I do miss him.. Because he's my only brother... But I still don't feel loved by him...for some reason... I think he has felt left out since he was little because of my disability.. I was always on the spotlight.. My parents loved to record me..I loved the attention.. But we were young...my parents didn't know any better... I didn't know what was happening... But I feel like I should blame myself for our distant relationship.. We both act like its all good...but it is NOT. And its not even that ... It is the fact that I wish he didn't come because he's leaving me again... I hate good bye's and see you later... It just leaves a f*****g scar on my heart and brings a thousand tears And that is what I fear... That is what I do NOT want to hear.... If you are going to come to leave me again, then just don't come to visit at all.. I hate to hurt.... © 2011 Johee Poetry |
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Added on May 3, 2011 Last Updated on May 3, 2011 AuthorJohee PoetryMiami, FLAboutHello, my name is Johee and I am 25 years old. I'm currently living in Miami Florida I have been writing poetry for more than 10 years. please tell me what you think of my work. dont hesitate .. more..Writing
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