Why does it always feel?

Posted Date: : Aug 4, 2008 8:21 PM

Why do I always feel like something is missing....
I want to get out of the same bullshit routine..
I want someone I can call my best girlfriend...
But I end up talking to other guys or my exes that still think they can be with me..
I HATE the loneliness and I don't know when it is going to end..
I can have someone who loves me right next to me but....
I feel like its not enough...
I can have my parents, my dogs and my cousin around me but...
I feel like its not enough...
I want to share my feelings with other people ...
But how can I when I know they have worse issues than me...
So why would they care...
You might call it selfish but there is something missing...
I have to wait till the 27th for school to start over...
I purposely chose 4 classes to keep myself busy...
A way to stay busy and no complaints from my parents telling me I don't stay BUSY!
I seriously hope I can get a job that relates to my major at UM..
It would be my DREAM job..
My education is the ONLY thing that is really keeping me happy..
It seems that nothing else is working...
Maybe I put myself down for the dumbest reasons...
Who knows...
I wish I had my brother around me to give me advice..
But at the same time...I know he wouldn't care...
Why am I this way??
And what do I want??
I really wish I knew
Something is missing...
I don't know what it f*****g is!
Is it friends?
A job?
I hope I figure this s**t out soon...

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[Thomas Fitzgerald]

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