Run and get away

Posted Date: : Jun 20, 2008 12:12 PM

It makes me cry just knowing that my mother thinks I'm gonna hit her one day..
My father blames me for his long time working...
Everything is an argument and my father hates me...
I just want to move out and everyone could be more in peace..

I have no one to turn to..
 even my boyfriend because he is working...
I have to deal with tears,depression and anger ...
No true friends to be there for me..

My birthday is coming up and I don't want to celebrate it with anyone but my man
My mother says I have mental issues and that I need a psychologist because I am always angry...
But they don't ever understand me because they don't know when I am just playing around or when I really serious..
They think negatively of my boyfriend just because he is Indian and TERRORIST comes to mind....

She keeps reminding me that I am bad inside of me...
maybe you guy are wrong for the things you tell me..
You have issues..you need a doctor..
I don't think my dad calling me a f*****g idiot is a good start..
But my mom's answer to that was " well you probably say f**k you when you are in your room"....
What the f**k??
That doesn't resolve anything...
Keep defending my father for the words he tells me...
I never curse him out because I know better...
Keep defending him how you always have even with his alcoholism...
Yea he's a great father....alright...
I respect him because he's around and he supports us....
But I've always considered my mom as my dad too..
You took me to the hospital...to my appointments..

I can ramble on but what's the point...
Nothing is ever solved in this place...

I feel like a teen that just wants to run and get away...

Reviews

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A stylish and reverent piece, well done, good read