Was I wrong?

Posted Date: : May 31, 2008 9:31 PM

I am so tired of always feeling like the bad person
Every time I try to be straight forward it just gets to her
All that crying just makes me mad
Why is it so bad asking you if we were that poor?
You made my dresses and my Halloween costumes
It is just a f*****g question and all you do is cry
I didn't say I didn't appreciate you
If you only knew my childhood and how I was made fun of..
Yea it should be funny to you because you didn't have to go through it..
So of course, you will never understand..
I wore that same dress on field day, field trips and my 5th grade graduation!
I remember asking you to buy me a new dress because I wore it too many times.
I remember going to school the next day with that same flower dress..
The first thing that came out that little girl's mouth was..
"that dress again?"

I felt so embarrassed because I was the show in that class.
I was the duck or the penguin.
yea very funny ha-ha..
I wish it was possible to block the negative of my childhood and remember more of the positives..
But I can't do it..
I guess I do have to get over stupid s**t in my head..
But it is HARD..

Don't act like things didn't happen to you either mom!
You even cried about them..
I just can't understand why you didn't even try to make an effort ..
Till this day you try to make clothes out of scraps..
But I guess its a Colombian thing..
I am not pissed of with my childhood..
I am just mad that you are SO SENSITIVE with my words..
Was I wrong ?

Wrong to tell you that you could've at least bought me a new dress?
Wrong to tell you that you made my clothes?
And it is funny that you still have that mentality that you are poor..
We are not poor

Why pick up things that I throw away in my trash can?
Why keep that English books that I don't need when you never read them?
Why cry every time you don't like the truth?

get over it...