I look back

Posted Date: : Jan 11, 2008 11:37 AM

It's just crazy how the days go by..

You wait for someone you love come back..

The day comes and nothing is yet seen..

I waited for the days that we would hang out and make a change..

I don't know if it was my fault too..

But then again..

You weren't ever home..

I wanted us to spend time together and just enjoy our company..

The only conversation we had, you just lecture me of my wrongs..

Momi said that you think I won't have a future..

I don't have any idea where you got that from..

But I don't think I have to prove anybody anything...

I just have to prove myself because I know I can..

It tears me and now I see I'm more hurt..

Because you don't try to make things work..

You just don't understand that I'm so hurt..

I know I've been acting like I don't care but I do..

Having a brother who is now seen as a stranger..

Now I look back..

And I realize I'm blaming my problems with other people I care about..

It is not fair to them..

I'm still wondering what your thoughts are in all of this..

But no reply or no feelings are there..

I still hold the pain in and I cry

Most are just dry tears because I feel numb..

I hide true emotion..

I know this is not good..

What am I supposed to do..

The worst thing, you couldn't even say GOODBYE...