The unkown members

Posted Date: : Oct 12, 2007 9:04 AM

 

Sometimes you don't have the passion to write anymore..

The passion goes elsewhere to other things..

It's not the same ..

It's a different game..

I realize that no matter if I stop writing, I still have you to read me..

My mind..my thoughts..my struggles

You get to see every little line that makes me the person I am today

One day I'll go away and never want to let you know..

But for now this is my time..

I have a lot to say..

There is family now trying to keep in touch with me and it is OK

But what bothers me the most are cousin's baby mamas trying to keep in touch

Finding an easy way out to avoid their own situations

I just saw a profile on hi5 of this 19 yro girl with a baby

Later I find out that baby belongs to my second cousin who I barely know

I guess that baby is my third cousin?? Wow..nice to know..

I don't know why they think I'll help when they have other people over there

I guess they think since I live in the united states I have the money

When they don't know I'm still struggling to get my car

We all wanna get far and wanna have a better life of course

But it took a second to make that bad decision that would change their lives

I laugh every time I read that message..

Hey Johanna I'm _____ and my baby is your cousin's kid.

You don't know me but it would be cool to get to know each other..

I'm planning to go to Miami and I was just wondering..

Can I stay over at your house for a few weeks till I get a good job?

Pbfftt..yea right..sure I will..of course..since I know you so well

Try that s**t on my other cousins you know better..

They'll let you in..

Some family members are so unfair..

Some see I send others money and later ask why I don't give it to them..

Some need it more than others and I know when I go out there..

Jealousy roams around.

But this I don't have to care..

And no I don't choose favorites

But what I do observe is the way you treat me..

You want to talk about me and my family?

Yea for sure you'll earn my respect..

This is how it has to be...

 

Copyrighted 2007

Johee

 

 

( Commentary: This poem I wrote because some family members out there think they can manipulate me. They act nice just to see that later they are just using you for your house, money and company. And really they talk s**t about me and my family thinking we are rich just because we live here and for living the "American Dream". there is no American dream. we Americans work hard for what we want. we can't even get what we want sometimes...I don't wanna hear nothing about baby mamas who barely my age.. its ridiculous how they can't even get help from their own family out there..very sad..)