Invisible

Posted Date: : Mar 30, 2007 8:50 PM

I don't think I wanna believe in him anymore..

"GOD"!!

I stopped praying ever since my mom got sick.

I didn't have anyone to turn to..you can imagine how that could've been

Coming home from school seeing my parents faces

At age 13 you don't really understand whats happening

Dad tells me shes sick...she needs to be going to different places

I'm just thinking..Is she gonna die?

Is she still gonna be here for me...will she be alright?

Daddy said she just needed some procedures done

There were days she came home and it didn't look pretty..no fun

She would go get her chemo I saw her get ill

I still cant believe how strong she was..this was a big deal

I cried when I saw her after surgery....her face was pale

She looked invisible

Couldn't resist her pain

She looked invisible

All I saw were white blankets with a red stain

Nurses trying to stand her up

I cried watching her walk..I thought it was so messed up

Why did this have to happen to my mom? an angel

I wondered what were her thoughts but I couldn't tell

At home, she decided to put papaya seeds in the patio

Didn't think that seed would make this amazing tree..the leaves well grown

I think that fruit was a miracle..that's all she ate

When she was done with chemo the tree just rotten

I Thought to myself was this tree meant for my mom..was this fate?

I love my mom and it was so hard as a child

Her sad face as thin brown hair fell to the ground

As I watched her sleep, I could hear the drums of the Cumbia music in the background

she loved that sound till this day she still does

Everything that happened was an emotional experience

It made me realized how grateful how I am to still have her here

You wont believe how I was so scared to lose her..So much fear

But this taught me to never be afraid of anything

Better yet..it taught me to confront everything

I'm glad she is alive

I will always cherish every moment we spend together

Each and every day that passes by

I just wanna be with her whenever

I just remember the past and I breathe in and out

 Its time to move forward and I cant get caught up

 So I respect the people who are cancer survivors

This goes out to you I hope you do everything your heart desires

Never give up because everything happens for a reason

 Remember you have family that loves you

They just want you rising