My expression through life

Posted Date: : Nov 19, 2007 10:40 PM

guilty for his pain

I feel his sorrow in every way

If I turned back time would've it been better to let it go

His eyes were seen invisible

like the breezing air where did it go?

I watch the lake just move placidly

The sound of the trees makes me think profoundly

Tension surrounds my body

I shiver as I sense a body around me

His touch is a relief

We lay on the dry grass as we watch and seek

Seek for the love we once felt for each other

Remember we said we would be together forever

He nibbles his lips on my ear

Tells me he will always be near

But I cant stop the thought of him leaving

One second he's here and later packing

I feel guilty for his troubles and his stress

I tell him Ill always be here for him but what about the rest?

I can't fix the past and other peoples mistakes

Cant tell  him to stop doing the bad things he does but in the end its whatever he makes

Whatever he makes out of life and the lessons learned

I don't show emotion I write them..later I let them burn

Burn till I forget them and start over

Other people forget them with drugs until they are sober

Id rather express emotion lyrically

Instead of turning it to rage but no this is my therapy

I see my mothers eyes as I tell her I won't ever drop out

I sill hope I keep my word because school is making bug out

Education is a priority for me and its a must

But the professors I call teachers are mostly a laugh

Most can't even teach ,they cant speak

You look at them once and you turn the other cheek

Why have professors who cant talk English these days

I'm Hispanic too, but damn I can't learn that way

Teachers now don't care about their students

Their worry is just a grade and how they do it

We need more of teachers who can motivate a students dream

To seek for the best until they win

I could've done better, Its not a lie

But teacher didn't care.. once you did bad they would just sigh

How many kids you see give up because they see no one cares

They walk with their head down as everyone stares

Now I see the rich make music schools and I wish I was there

I tell myself If I would've gone farther if someone cared

But Its not my fault a kid doesn't think the future

They just see the present and how they are nurtured

I remember when I came home and all I saw was daddy

Everything changed when I came to see the issues that came at me

It wasn't daddy but daddy with anger

Coming home as he got mad with a weird laughter

He never laid a hand on me though

But he put my mom down and that I don't like him for

He was in my graduation and I love him for that

That was so important to me I hope he knows that

I thank my mom for raising me so well

Ive never touched a blunt to be real

To this day I thank my mom for not letting me out with these hoes at age 15

What would've I turn out to be if I was with them as as a teen

Because the same group of girls now turned to be the worst

I saw one the other day with a baby crying for thirst

See things happen for a reason I didn't have to be here

But everyone chooses their destiny you hear?

This is my expression through life and this is how it went

I fell once but I got up twice, everything was said

Thoughts are running in my mind

But there are no more words to find

To express this life

Ive gone through too much and its time I live my life