Losing myself

I used to write all the time to vent my emotions, but when I started bottling up what I was thinking I feel like I lost my ability to write or to connect to what I was writing. I hope this was decent.

I cringe at these words

for they are in absence of a spark

and the words I'd written that once seemed so bright

have become resignedly and unfeelingly dark

And I feel that I have lost myself, never to return

that in my own sweet misery, it was my own pages that I'd burned 

I've thrown away my favorite piece of me

the thing that set me apart

and I think now that I've locked myself

out of my own forsaken heart

I feel that I'm drowning now, in a sea that was never mine

trying to find warmth from a sun, that has long since ceased to shine

And I'm afraid I'll never be

the man I was meant to become

because in my own contented apathy 

I've become inadvertently numb

Reviews

[Weasley]

whoa deep. you know where to find me if you gotta talk. really good though.

[Chong N. Kim]

I love this, I can relate to your lyrics on many level, thank you for sharing.