fear

I'm afraid. 

Of: 

What I can't see, 

What I can,

What I shouldn't. 

What could happen, 

What won't,

What shouldn't. 

What I remember;

Everything. 

The sweat, 

The smell,

The heat, 

The noise, 

The screams,

The face. The face of pain and anguish. 

There when I close my eyes,

And when I open them. 

I'm there now

afraid. 

And here

still afraid.

How I feel. Guilty.

How I don't. Human.

What I do;

How

Why. 

What I don't do; 

Why. 

Afraid of myself

Who I am

What I am. 

What I can do

What I can't do. 

Author's Note

supposed to be written from the pov of a ptsd sufferer.