Airport Limbo

Airport limbo 

 

If it is not yet six

I still have seven, eight, nine

And a half more hours of this hell

Of waiting and debating what to eat

And what to drink

What to read 

And what to think 

And as I feel 

My heartache sink 

Into my gut

I wish I were somewhere 

Else

Like I always do

I wish I were someone 

Else

Like I always am 

Unless I'm not 

And you're never not yourself

And I'll never be anyone 

Else

And we'll never be anything 

More

Thinking thinking turns to thought

And I know I ought 

To think of someone else 

But my mind keeps coming back to you

Do you know how it feels

To be in two places at once?

My writing orbits your existence 

And my escape is imminent 

Into open spaces

Uncharted territory 

The final frontier of fornicating

And always miscommunicating

Gushing goose bumps begotten 

Forgotten faces and far gone 

Feigning feelings yet remaining 

Nihilistic to the end 

The past is past

They say nothing lasts 

But I see the end as new beginning 

Open doors behind the close

I only open at the close, he said 

Shoulder holding up your head

Try to bottle up your dread

Pop the cork and drink instead 

Smothered something left for dead

We can face our demons

Once they bled

Into

A memory of a memory 

Of things once said