Winter...A Poem by Josalynn MarieA poem about the cold and lonely feelings of winter, and heartbreak.Winter smells like the Chapstick my boyfriend carefully applied on his lips before braving the cold to see me. We walk around the city centre together past buskers and homeless people. He’s wearing a skater beanie and clasping a hot chocolate with two hands, and I think dang, this is worth braving the cold for. Winter smells ashy but refreshing, like a lit cigarette warming me up inside and out acting as a rare beacon of heat in the cold air around me. It’s so cold I’ve got smoke shooting out of my mouth with every breath long after my last drag. Winter smells like tears streaming down my face in the shower only to be instantly washed away. I’m engulfed in a mixture of steam and heartbreak wondering what I did wrong to lose him turning the heat so high I nearly pass out on your bathroom tiles. Three weeks into September and ironically, it’s the first time I’ve felt cold all winter. Winter smells like my best friend’s hoodie as I break down crying into his stomach I mean the world to him but at that point I’m too heartbroken to care. All I can do is wish that it was someone else holding me tight as I break down instead. By the time I appreciate my shoulder to cry on, it’s too late. I guess I don’t appreciate what I have until it’s gone. Winter smells like my gym, a rare sanctuary from the chilly wind outside, conveniently nestled in the basement of the mall, beneath a laundromat and a comic shop. Somehow, it’s the one place that stays the same year-round, no matter the season. Sweat dripping down my brow as I push my body to its limits on the assault bike. That familiar burn in my torso as I do sit-ups. It’s consistent. Winter smells like the pint of vodka I snuck from my house into a metal water bottle ready to be split between me and three friends in the blind spot behind the school gym. I’m freezing my butt off, all for a drink. My throat burns as I gulp it down and I prefer it that way. It’s a welcome change from the chill. I’m living. I’m not happy but one day I will be.
I know that. I know that it’ll get better one day.
But until then,
I’m on my own.
© 2019 Josalynn MarieAuthor's Note
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1 Review Added on September 27, 2019 Last Updated on September 27, 2019 AuthorJosalynn MarieHubert, NCAboutLeader of SHS Photogrpahy Club. Proud Girlfriend. Loyal Big Sister. Honest Best Friend. I write all kinds of poetry, and short stories. :) more..Writing
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