How can I get over you?

I'm tired of getting hurt and going back to the people who hurt me. Ahh oh well. I hope you enjoy this piece!

              My broken burning heart still longs for your soul

I love you and think about you more than anything
Including myself, my bewildered friends, and messed up family
I miss you too much every time I take another breath my whole body hurts
I am tired of caring about you when you only use me
Every time I stab my toe on my broken dresser draw
Or get paper cuts from test at school
Or scratch myself until I see my beaming bright blood
I do not say, "ow"
Not even a peep of, "ouch"
Because nothing can nearly hurt more
Than my unfix-able painful broken heart
Every time you cheated and hurt me
I still wiped my tears and ran into your arms to forgive
You say you loved me too
Then you shoved me against the wooden floor
And walked out my door
Since you left me here shivering all alone
I had to sell our, well my home
Those memories of you and I were haunting my soul
Even though when you walked out my door
You ripped my soul and heart apart
Crying on the floor made me realize I was going mentally insane
Now living alone in a old apartment is frightening
Whenever I hear a noise in the middle of the night
There is no one near to fight away my fears
I still get excited and try to call and text you on your cellphone
Not to fight, just so I could hear your calming voice
Of course I get no responses
I know your are probably getting high
I pretend you are just safely sleeping
When you ignore me over and over again
I bang my head against the red brick wall
Hoping that I could erase my painful scars on my heart
Those scars that you caused never go away
I clean my shiny blood from my head
I rub my head to help my headache go away
And I hide underneath my red covers all night
Checking my phone every minute
Pretending everything will be just fine
There is too much pain locked in my slowly beating heart
Too many negative emotions fulfill my mind all the time
When I know I need more happy pills and booze
Just to make it through my lonely days and boring nights
Every where I turn, even when I am driving to work
I see images of your lovely face
And of you and I loving each other
I think if you came back to me
You probably would just leave me again
But I just can not ignore and hurt you
How you ignore and hurt me
If I can not have you, then I want to die
Leaving my body would take away my pain
I cry, swallow my salty tears, and frown all the time
I cannot even keep my bloodshot eyes open anymore
While I wonder why the people who do not want to die do
When the people who want to pass on do not.

Reviews

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

A long poem but didn't feel like it, it is so heartfelt and relatable. Great write :)

[Britty Bear]

I have felt this way before... It is a terrible feeling. :/ I hope to only read it no feel it again. This piece was powerful and touching.

[0_o Abbie]

This is insanely wonderful write. When I first started reading it I was like 'oh great.' But the more I read the more I loved it. It's really really amazing.

[Chris]

Powerful but sad.
It was a good read as expected. :]

[Tate Morgan]

heart break is such a terrible feeling I wqas heartbroken once and I ended up in the hospital i thought i would never walk out alive

[SociallyAwkward]

awww this is really good i luv it so much so emitional :P well done

[steph]

This was a painful piece that takes the reader through the pain and heartache with you. makes them feel the unfixable broken heart... Superb read and very well written

[Moflo]

I really like the way you displayed emotion here. Good job.

[Jeff]

Incredibly sad and emotional piece.

[cfix]

Wow this is good, so emotional and somewhat sad write. Like the red lines your put into this. Well written and expressed!