Christmas wish

This is a twisted short story. Please be mature while reading. Enjoy and comment. Remember, even on Christmas be careful what you wish for.

I love waking up glazing into your handsome pale blue eyes
As we lay next to each other in our bed
You know I am going out of my mind
Because when you brush the hair out of my eyes
My red hair falls out into the palm of your hands
However, you always overlook my flaws
We look at the gorgeous sunrise instead
No need for an annoying alarm clock
I love you more than I can express into words
Every moment I am with you
I want to celebrate our love
Too bad you have an addiction to getting wasted
I know you get up not to head to work
But to go back into the bars and drink with girls
I see, I see all those red lipstick marks over your neck
It helps you sleep at night, doesn't it?
My mind, heart and soul hurts when you act this way
You say that you love me when we do foreplay
You say that you care about me when I go down on you
So why do you puke and fall asleep in the middle of intercourse?
Liquor and cheap girls perfume fill up our brains
Some nights I even smell old axe spray from other guys on you
Another day comes up and you run to "the store"
You left your cell phone on the kitchen table
So I just checked it, to make sure you have no missed calls
Well there are plenty of missed texts
Some chick saying that shes gonna pick you up at "the store"
Meaning bar
Well is this how it's always gonna be?
I'm tired of holding on to you when you love to play around
Christmas is coming soon and I'm tired of being home alone in the cold
Sipping on egg nog, wondering if you are safe
I feel so lonely when you are away
You say you are going to try to change
Why do I keep believing lies?
I ask you all the time, "Is that another hickey, I do not remember giving you one?"
You always say, "No, it's just a bruise from playing basketball with the guys. They can be rough with the ball."
I know why I keep believing your lies, because you perfectly planned them out
Another night shivering all alone
We can not afford to put on the heat
Then I think to myself, "Why would other guys throw the ball at each others necks?"
When you come home four hours late
I whisper at you, telling how much I need you
You ignore me
I scream at you, while breaking our only four Christmas dishes
You head into the shower
I scream louder while cursing
You come out of the shower to go back to "the store"
I stay at home putting our Christmas tree up with candy canes
Cleaning up the broken dishes looking at Santa broken face
I notice from my peripheral view it's 11:11 pm
I talk to this one broken dish and wish, "All I want for Christmas is him with me."
I leave the Christmas lights in the cardboard box
At one in the morning I am laying down
Smoking all of your strawberry flavored cigars
While I'm waiting up by the phone
I get a call from the Hospital
Saying to come quick
In a split of a second, I put on my blue and red silk rob
Grab the car keys and speed to the Hospital
Hoping my red 1970 Mustang does not break this time
Finally, I arrive at the Hospital in your room
Looking at you on the Hospital bed with the IV in your veins
You have pain all over your body
Blood gushing out of your cuts all over
I cried, "What happened?"
While the nurses came and said that it was a car crash from a DUI
That you only have three more hours to live, but the nurses did not tell you
You slowly look up at me with those pale blue eyes that can barley even open
I try to snug up against you on the bed
You softly speak to use the cell phone
I cried, "To call who? Your mother to help you pay the tickets?"
You laughed, "No, to call this other girl."
I yelled, "That stupid girl who you were going to meet?"
You just looked down and your broken arm
I pleated, "No, no, no."
I am tempted to rip out your IV and throw it on the filthy floor
But I can not harm you, no matter how many times you hurt me
I get up off from the Hospital bed we were laying in
Throw the cell phone at you while walking out the Hospital doors
I run back into my car
Scrambling papers all over looking for our gun
Then I recalled you had it in your car, to bad it's totaled now
So I speed back into our apartment
To find the bag of cocaine, snort three grams
Clean my bloody nose
Call our friends and family from the house phone
They just say we need therapy, so I hang up
And head back to the Hospital with the Christmas lights box in my hand
Even though the sign clearly says, "No visitors after two am."
I slip a few nurses twenty bucks so they look away
I head to your room K103
You calmly say, "Sit down on the chair right there."
So I do, showing you the pretty lights from the box to cheer you up
You say, "We need to take a break from our misery."
I'm so hurt, I try to ignore you
Plugged in the Christmas lights to show you how colorful they are
But you just say, "It's not you, it's me. It will only be a short break."
I say," Okay, I know it will be a very short break. Just close yours eyes for me, it will make me jolly, and in this spirit of Christmas."
You raise your eyebrows
Then close your eyes and whisper, " Well, Merry Christmas."
When you do that, I climb on the chair
Rap the Christmas flickering lights around my neck as a noose
Hook them up to the broken piece of the cracked ceiling
Kick the blue chair down under me
As my red slippers fall off my dangling feet
I scream to you while gasping for air, "Goodnight, I will see you on the other side."
I slowly stop breathing, knowing you can not hurt me anymore
No one can revive my life, not even in this place
All I heard from my left ear was, "Other si..."
I hang there with a real smile on my face
Knowing that you will be with me in another hour or so
I am not sticking around to watch you die
Three years being with you is to long to just let go
I received my wish as a gift, all I want for Christmas is you.

Reviews

[.]

. wow ... you are a genius writer and a spectacular human being ... here's something for you ... something that i wrote once ... a long time ago ...

i feel like crystals
of mercury
in your palm
you tilt your palm
for a crystal frenzy
then with one swift move
you swallow me
and both of us die

. take care of you, dear writer ... and never question your heart ... but don't give up your life ... for there are others ... in similar distress ... not anywhere close to being as articulate as you ... and they need you ... more than the quintessential perfect paramour ... more than you need yourself ... and do forgive me if i've said too much ...

[JadeForever]

Very interesting. Kept me reading throughout the whole thing.

-Jade

[PyroKitty24]

I loved this story. You did an excellent job writing this and portraying the emotion. You might want to changed the rating to mature, though.

[Ashley]

its kinda a poem too lol

[Alphachad]

This kinda freaked me out. In a good way. What a sad story. Just try to read it again and again to straighten out some misspellings. But all in all, it's a good write. Very good indeed.

[*skittlez*]

i really like this one two

[Champagne]

This is just beautiful. Its raw passion hurts you. The words stare out in their vivid nakedness. One of the most beautiful pieces of poetry I've read. Thank you for sharing.

[Mason]

This is incredible. It's a roller coaster of emotion that infiltrates my soul and comfort.

[Nobody.]

well written....nice twist ending....I like it.
cheers!

[SimplyOlivia]

Like everyone else, it's really powerful. I didnt think that's where it was going at all at the beginning. I thought it'd be a cute little love story but that isn't it at all. It took me by surprise and I loved it.