The Angel made me survive

I really enjoy this beautiful poem, I hope you feel the same.

After another fight with family about school and work
After friends ignored me for not being popular enough
And after my lover lied and cheated
I decided life is too much, I felt so beaten up
I ran for miles, nervously biting my nails and lips until they bleed 
Ripping off my old jacket, facing the freezing weather
I thought I would always be addicted to emotional and physical pain
Until I finally stopped at this empty deserted gas station
There was no one around, just the smell of gas lingered
I took my small bag filled with 10 of my anti-depression pills
Thinking I should just swallow them all because I forgot money
In order to pay for anything else
I lost my mind in the gutter, I was tired of being unwanted
I stopped praying and gave up on life for awhile
I thought if I ended my life my soul would ease
I had those pills in my shaky frost bitten hands, all white and shiny
Then a few fell on my shoes, I forgot I had two long shoelaces on
I took those shoelaces off my shoes to tie a noose
Thinking I can attach it to the broken bathroom ceiling
While I get up on there by the filthy toilet seat
I had everything ready to go
I was tired of always being lonely, sorry and in a fight
I just wanted to have my eyes closed forever
And heart to stop beating
To escape my real reality
Before I decided to end my painful life
I stared with my teary filled big brown eyes
And quickly pounding bruised heart
Into the dusty mirror
In the reflection I seen a white image
Thinking I was all alone I turned to look at the image
I seen a picture of an angel standing in the doorway
I seen a beautiful young child with a golden halo
With sliver sparkly wings that were larger than her body
Singing I should not end my life
Because I have a gift to help others
She sang while I cried my salty tears out
I tried to put my arms around her for a hug
But she vanished leaving me free with memories
She sang the truth, my hero finally came to save me
I thought I only had pills in my bag until my phone rang
41 missed calls
I did not have the slightest idea that they loved me
Nor cared this much about me
I felt like I should stay here on earth with prayers to help
My time is not up just yet
I can cope with hope.            

Reviews

[Brittni]

I wish that you could see the tears sliding down my eyes as I was reading this. This is a poem that people should read if they ever feel that desperation and lost without any hope. My favorite part was:

I seen a beautiful young child with a golden haloWith sliver sparkly wings that were larger than her body
Singing I should not end my life
Because I have a gift to help others
She sang while I cried my salty tears out
I tried to put my arms around her for a hug
But she vanished leaving me free with memories
She sang the truth, my hero finally came to save me"

That is so beautiful, very well done :)

[Chelsea]

this is absolutely beautiful.

[Wolfwind]

This one brings to light one of those turning points in life, when a shred of hope is found and the soul is able to reach out and get a footing once again. It must have been hard, for so much was going on, swirling around in the mind, in the heart. I'm glad the heavens opened and gave you a sign. =) But these words still make me want to offer a hug.

"Even in our darkest hours, there is always a bright light to be seen." - Aaron

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

Wow! what vivid imagery you paint, it felt like being you. Amazing write:)

Yas

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

what a heartrending trail and then to be uplifted in the word of palms~ beautiful~