Playing mind games

playing with love like a ninja.

Baby why do you play mind games with me?
Why can we not be more than friends who have fun?
We have known each other for awhile now
You are the only one who saves me
From shooting a bullet from a gun through my head
My mind ponders all the time
I dread the days without hearing from you
I have to strongly pull myself away to stop thinking of you
I do not have any clue about anything
But I do know that you are the only one
I enjoy being around
Even if you do drive me crazy
Please do not say we are done because you love another
My bleeding heart can not take it anymore
You softly whisper you love me in my ear
When you do, I have no fear
I can feel you in my shattered beating heart 
Even our souls interact
When we mess, fool around and laugh
You love to pull on my hair
Then you run your fingers down along my back, and all over
I love to bite and kiss you all over the place, tingling your fantasies
I know we both feel so lovely sharing special memories
But I'm still scared to tell you how I really love you more
I do not want to get turned down again
So instead I write, I wonder if you know its about you
Sadly the next couple of days you ignore me
Why baby? I just pretend you are busy
Every time my phone vibrates or my IM window pops up
Or even a knock on my door
I wish it was you
I miss you even when you are near
I always think of you, even when I should not, I do
But I usually get no reply, baby why?
I suffer all over my whole body and entire mind without you
You are too far away
It is our density to be with only each other, I just know it
I will not move on, I just can not
I do wish I could stop thinking especially of you so much
All I do is worry, think, cry, then think these thoughts all over again
How can I stop caring so much?
How can I control my emotions?
I want to scream, I have so much emotional pain
Deep inside I feel unhappy
But when I am with you I feel better
When I imagine you, I feel sane
Even if you do play with my mind and heart, I still love you
My bed lacks the warmth of your presence 
Please come here so we can hold each other
Then maybe I could sleep tightly
I think I need so much help that therapy can not control
Because I have an addiction to love
I really wish right now you where here
Even if its just to hold or massage your hands
Every time I even think of your face, smile, anything about you
My heart starts to race so fast
I only dream that you feel the same

Author's Note

This is personal, so I hope you like it.

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[SimplyOlivia]

I love how personal it is cause ive been in the exact same boat. Feel free to message me some time if you ever wanna talk