Why do you do what you do to me?

i hope u like it, its kinda long.

Kill me so i don't feel anymore pain at all
Push my body up against the hard wall
Everything feels confused and dazed
Go ahead, keep having a tight grip on my bruised neck
As i feel your big hands chocking my throat
I fall fast onto the ground
And still feel the pain
Suffocating, bleeding deep cuts
Your silence is really killing me
emotionally and physically im slowly dying
All i asked was, " why did you show up an hour late on our romantic date? "
Just let me break free
Feeling locked in a big mistake
I try to slowly crawl away
While you lay on the soft couch
I finally get up to unlock the front door
I can't make it out the door
Since i seen a vision of our old memories
Together we used to be one
So i stopped right before opening the door
To just lay there to bleed some more
You point and laugh, and gulp down another beer
My blood seems to amuse you
Once again, i see another vision
Of our old memories
You used to take my breath away
Just being you, you didn't used to hurt me this way
But, now, have i lost my mind?
Yes, you don't seem sorry right now
I slowly get up from laying down on the cold floor
By the door
I get up to go into our room
As i see you out of the corner of my eye
You are just sitting there looking away at the bloody floor
You didn't even try to call 911.
What just happened?
What just went on?
Is it going to like this forever?
And ever..?
We were living in a fairytale
Until she got all over you
Now i feel so small
Since you changed your old ways
I can't take this anymore
Are you going to come back around?
Why do i keep holding on?
These cuts are deeper then they appear to be
I'm sick of cleaning the dried blood
Off of my bruised body
And especially neck
I dont want to hurt anymore
Instead of kissing away my pain
You just give me more cuts
They hurt more than paper cuts
Through the web of your finger
Imagine 100 times that
I just need to go..
to stop holding on..
Its hard to let go of something you want
Half of my heart tells me to leave you
Half of my heart tells me to forgive
I crashed on our bed to sleep away my broken heart
To get away from the pain, for a few hours.

Author's Note

ignore the spelling.

Reviews

[bwmorency]

It was more a story than an actual poem piece. It was also a little long. It could stand to be shorten and there were a lot of superflous lines and words in there that can be taken out.